If I'm honest, I don't think I have been very good at cultivating them.
In my young adult, pre-married days, hanging out with close friends was easy. We hung out, did crazy things. Lived together for a small bit. We were all part of the same religious group. So our world's were very connected.
In my young adult, married life, it still was hashish, but definitely not quite the same. I threw my whole being into my marriage, but all while not knowing what and how and really anything about making a good marriage.
Got pregnant right away, and then my life was baby and husband. And to top it off, moved when Abby was 5 months old.
But we moved where close friends of ours had moved, so we were able to reconnect with them. And for the next six years, they were our best friends.
Those six years past, and they moved to Hawaii and we moved back to our mutual hometown. Up in the frozen half-north. I still say God has a sense of humour directing us moving in two directions to vastly different climates. Can you see who His favourites are?
Coming back here, I had a couple friends to reconnect with, but it wasn't the same. We either were on different pages of life (kids, no kids) or we had been apart too long and our previous BFFness was now just good acaintance-ness. I tried to make some friends with other homeschool mom's, but after a few years, things seemed to fizzle out.
So why can't I keep friends? I'm not great at long distance, I feel disconnected. I worry that this friendship thing is all my fault because I feel to busy to organize any kind of meeting together. Or am too. Busy to actually do anything. I worry that people are off put by my weirdness.
This has devolved into a pity party. Without any chips and dip!
