It is late. Yes it is. This is not an unusual fact since this time of day (or night) comes every 24 hours. Yes, brilliant conversation I know. But what is not so usual is that I am not asleep. I usually shut my lights out by 11. Ideally this would be 10 but lets face it, I almost never reach my ideals.
Case in point, ideally I should be sleeping. I am not. So obviously I need to work on hitting my goals more often. Since I am forced (sort of, technically I guess I'm forcing myself since it's my own brain keeping me from my comfy bed) to be here, therefore you shall be forced to read my late night thoughts. I'm scared, and so should you be!
Does anyone else have troubles falling asleep? I know my mom has the same issues as me, and I suspect that my oldest daughter does too since of the times I've slept with her, she takes forever to settle down and sometimes she wakes up in the middle of the night wide awake. Seriously, WIDE.
My brain refuses to shut off. That is my problem. It just keeps thinking of this and that. The things I didn't do today, the things I did. What I should do tomorrow. The statistics of whether I actually will do them or not. How long it will take to lose my weight. When will we have more kids. Am I really going to be able to teach my kids at home? Am I crazy for wanting to try?
This list could go on, but I'll stop there and spare you the agony of reading it. It must be boring reading someone else's thoughts. Well, when they are randomly posted like this. But oh! I have a great sort of "praise report" thingy about my being up late: I haven't snacked on anything yet! That is a miracle. I have discovered these last few years, that I eat just to fill the time (eating is so much more fun than mopping the floor yet again). And especially in the evening I like to snack. So it is a huge thumbs up to me for not consuming any food as I type this.
Well, I think this might be enough late night rambling for you all to take in. Maybe I'll be able to sleep now that I've wrote this out for you all. Or maybe not. It's not like I actually wrote anything of substance tonight.
2 comments:
I LOVE your late night "rambles". Sometimes these are the best because they really convey the true nature of yourself. We all do it. hehe
And yes, I too struggle with the midnight "active brain" issues. hugs!
Oh good! I'm glad to know that someone is listening to my nonsense! Hahaha. Though I think that it is true that I'm more real there. I'm not editing and second guessing what I'm saying. If you ahve a cure for the brain issues I'm definitely up for help, hahaha.
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